Monday, October 7, 2013

I don't even know who you are!

I was in an elementary school that I had never been to before today.  I didn't know very many people, come to think of it the only person I did know drove there with me.  This is an awkward position for me to be in.  I love people.  I love to talk to people.  I love to laugh with people, but when I don't know anyone I tend to get quiet and shy.

So, when to my surprise I noticed a little boy that had grown up with my daughter in church youth group I got excited.  I had served snack to this child for years, he should know who I am.  However, when I said hello to him and called him by name do you want to know what his response was?  A very hateful....Who are you?  I said, Ms. Erika from church?  He then repeated with even more hatred I don't even know who you are!  I gave a few more examples of how he should know me and yet nothing but a blank stare.

I got mad.  I was hurt.  How dare he be so rude to me!  Brat!  Jerk!  All of this venom was building up inside of me, and then I realized something.

At the end of this life.  When all is said and done.  Will I have lived a life where Jesus will turn to me and recognize me or will he say to me I don't know you!?  Will I throw up things like...You remember me, I was in church every Sunday!  You know me, I went to church camp!  You know me, I taught Wee worship to 3 and 4 year olds for years!

Will he recognize me?  Will he say Well, done good and faithful servant or will he say I never knew you.

This little burst of adrenaline today has brought the thirst for a closer relationship with Christ, a want for  a stronger bond and broader knowledge of his word.  I choose to forget about my annoyance to the child and use it as a spring board to a better life for me.

Just so you know, as I was sitting there saddened and hurt and looking down I heard the beautiful tones of a familiar voice.  MS ERIKA!!!   I looked up to see a little girl from our youth group.  Now that is what I want to hear on judgement day!!!

Well done my good and faithful servant.

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