Funerals are not fun.

If something were to happen to you tomorrow that devastated you, took your job away, all of your material possessions...gone. Would there be people left by your side or do you only have people in your life that are there for how you make them feel, for what you bring to the party ?

Any time I go to a funeral, I am always fascinated not only by the words that the speakers say but by how many or who is in attendance. If it is an elderly person is there still a large crowd or did they only have friends and family that are mostly gone now. Does the speaker talk about the person and specifics regarding the deceased's life or can you tell that the speaker did not know the person and this is just a canned funeral speech that is in need of some editing.

Funerals can make me extremely sad but not for the reason that the person died necessarily. In that instance I am a little jealous that they get to move on to Glory and leave this messed up world behind. Funerals can make me sad because it makes me wonder about my own life choices. Am I investing enough in those around me so that I will be remembered after I am gone and not even so that I am remembered but did I make enough of a difference that people notice my absence?

My grandparents did. Their funerals had lines that wrapped around the funeral home. They invested in others. My father did. His funeral was standing room only and had an overflow room. His life's work was helping families who had children with disabilities.

I recently heard on the news about a man who was very wealthy, made some mistakes with his practice and now could possibly lose everything. He was a nice man. The mistakes he made probably came out of greed, my question is will he still have friends? Will the people that surrounded him in his wealth still be there in his sorrow?

I love the saying I would rather have 4 quarters than a hundred pennies. My friendships are important to me, I want to invest in the people that I love. I do not want to live my life so that the perception is that I am fabulous. I actually want to be such an improvement on this world that my absence is felt but more so that I make the world a better place by being in it.  

Life is hard. Hormones are hard. Often times I feel like no one likes me and that I have no friends. That is just the enemy trying to extinguish light.  I remind myself monthly that it's not true. If you feel the same way don't believe the lies. Go out and do something for someone else and I guarantee it will make you feel better.

Go out...Be kind.