Thursday, September 30, 2010

Things that bugged me today

So, I'm not sure if it was the moon or what today but there were several things that just really struck me as strange and I want to talk about them.

Vanity plates. I thought they were really cool in high school. I used to try to think of some 7 letter phrase that was really cool. I never came up with one that I found to be witty enough to spend the extra money on. Today I was driving behind IGOT2GO. Now, the first thing that I'm wondering is where. Where do they have to go? The bathroom? Is this an all the time type problem? Are they a doctor that deals in the lower digestive track? Wouldn't that be UGOT2GO? Or is it a place? Did they get to go to some concert or country that they had always wanted to see? Is this really vanity plate worthy? I contemplated going up to them at the red light but you never know who is packing and someone with a vanity plate like that might be IGOT2GO to jail. So I wasn't messing with them.

While I was still behind him or her (I never got close enough to figure that one out) I passed a Quality Inn. I'm sure it is a fine Quality Inn. I'm sure it is clean and a standard hotel room that is perfectly fine for a weary traveler to refresh themselves in on a long road trip. I'm sure their little soaps and shampoos and what not are completely adequate for the price that you pay for your room. The sign out front however made me wonder. It said Best Hot Breakfast In Town! Really? That is a pretty strong statement from a Quality Inn where most of its cooking is done in a microwave. So, then as I'm driving all I can think of is all of the other places that I would think would have a better hot breakfast than them. Then I am wondering if it makes Cracker Barrel (who is right across the street) mad. I would put Cracker Barrel's hot breakfast up against any other one in town. I then thought of all the little grandma's who still make full hot southern breakfast for their little grandpa husband's with scratch made biscuits and ham fresh from the farm and I'm seriously considering turning around and going into the Quality Inn and just saying YOU LIE! and turning around and leaving. I'm not one to spread ill will though so I didn't.

Why is food that is bad for you so easy to get and cheap? I needed a quick something to eat before going over to the kids school for pet day today. I contemplated a cafeteria that is known for its southern goodness but there just wasn't enough time. So, I decided on Krystal. It would be fast and I didn't want something big. I got a $1.49 kids meal...$1.63 with tax. For my money I received a small drink, a Krystal, fries and an order of sweet bites...think munchkins fried. As I consumed my lunch I thought about what I was eating. Not smart. Grease with a side of sugar followed with a blob of fat. Yummo! I guess I just need to plan better. I know places have wraps and other sorts of better for me food but not for that cheap! CRAZY!

and that ladies and gentlemen is what drove me crazy today.

Kids say the craziest things.

My kids are so the complete opposite of one another. My eldest is very serious and literal and does not understand "kidding". My youngest is just funny in everything she does whether it is appropriate or not.

One time when they were younger we were in a public restroom. My son kept peaking into my daughter's stall to see if she was almost done as it was taking her quite sometime to finish her business. She yelled at him. "Stop looking through my crack!" I'm sure the other potty goers got quite the giggle out of that one either that or DHS is still looking for me.

My daughter's latest thing that cracked me up was from this weekend. She kept telling me that she wanted to go to the zoo. She said that everyone was talking about a beaver at the zoo and she wanted to go see it. I finally told her that I didn't even think the zoo had beavers and she was adamant that everyone was talking about this Justin Beaver and how much they loved it and she wanted to see him too. Ahhh. Justin Beiber? She looked at me funny she said do you know about it? I said yes sweetie and I'm so very glad that you think he is a beaver. We just might go to the zoo this weekend to see if we can find him! Is it wrong of me to want them to stay young and innocent and to not be some raving lunatic for a boy that really really needs to cut his hair? I'm sure he is a wonderful person, but the phenomenon that surrounds him is not something I want my child getting sucked into! I am holding onto young and innocent for as long as I can!

Blessing or a burden?

Why is it that it is not socially acceptable to go out into the world when you are sick but if you are a jerk it is perfectly okay? I ask this mainly because a bad attitude will spread quicker than any disease and infect more people than any flu ever thought possible, and in some extreme cases even kills more people than the flu every deemed necessary!

If you wake up in the morning with a bad attitude think to yourself hmmm...do I want to possibly start a road rage epidemic today? If it is not possible to stay in bed then at least stay away from others. There is no reason to send those bad vibes out there because they will eventually come back around and bite you on the tooshy. So, go out there and be a blessing not a burden. You can do it. yay!

You are important!

Before you read this please understand that I was never an English major and I am sure something will be dangling... participle or what not, but I just want to say this all be it inadequately because I feel it to be important. So, don't expect my normal slapstick this is a smidge deeper K? K.

My mother has a habit that is amusing. She tries to guess what people that she has never seen before are doing. There is no way of knowing if she is accurate or not so it is always one of those conversations that just kind of sits there. You want to continue it but you can't. One Sunday morning we were driving to church. My mother looked across to see an older gentlemen driving a car dressed in a suit and tie with a hat on. My mother said "Oh, that is so sad." My father said Why? Why is that sad? My mother said because he is a widower and he has to go to church by himself. Without missing a beat my daddy said He is not! His wife had to stay home because her mother has come to live with them after falling last week and she doesn't feel comfortable leaving her mother alone and her mother doesn't feel comfortable getting out and about yet. The look of relief on my mother's face was apparent until she realized he had made it all up.
Do you ever sit and wonder about all of the people in this world and how we only come into contact with a small percentage in our lifetime? One of my favorite things about facebook is seeing friends that know friends. You know that "friends in common" feature. It really is a small world.
Do you ever sit and wonder what your roll is in this world? Do you feel small and unimportant? Do you ever wonder if you are making up words like unimportant? Non-important...importantless...inadequate. Okay, do you ever feel inadequate?
I was reading a book with Alexander it was talking about Leonardo da Vinci which by the way does anyone else find it amusing that he was da vinci because he was from Vinci? Think of all of the people that were from Vinci and there is really only one who is still widely recognized as being da Vinci. In this book it talks about the hundreds of different ideas that Leonardo had and how he felt like a failure because many of them never worked. Well, they never worked for him but later they were created into things we use in everyday life. Did you know that he created an airplane? It never worked. Think of how dissappointed he must have felt. He must have wanted to hang it all up and just go be a....okay, I got nothin'...what is a mundane job in Vinci? Why is nothing seeming mundane right now? If I say glass blower that is an art, if I say pasta maker that is an art, if I say potter again art.
I guess what I am trying to say is that You are an intricate part of this world. You! We all are. Even if you are staying at home with a small child and never seeing the light of day you are still contributing. You could be raising the next Leonardo. You could be reenergizing yourself for life after small children. You could be going into a job day in and day out and feeling like you are getting nowhere. Your contribution may have nothing to do with your job maybe it is that you are going to meet someone at that job. Maybe you are going to be walking to that job you hate and everyday you are going to pass this one person and encourage them thus causing them to have a better day and go out and accomplish something. You never know. It is a big big world and God is the only one who can see the big picture. Do not be discouraged. Do not fret. You are very important. You. Whether anyone else sees it or you see it you are important.
Take a look at the human body. Think of all of the parts that make up the body. You think of the big parts like the heart, the eyes, the liver, the kidneys, but what about a white blood cell? Just one. Doesn't seem very important does it, but it is. What about an eyelash? Maybe a cell that makes up the eyelash. Every part of your body works together and every part plays a very important role. You play an important role, and I am blessed for having you as a friend.

And away we go!!!

So, I'm finally coming up for air. Life is still completely crazy but there are at least a few pockets of time that I can grab onto as ME time. I have decided to write a blog so that I feel at least somewhat productive with my personal time. I mean I could play solitaire or some sort of puzzle game and I could justify that by saying that I am keeping my mind sharp for my later years, but then what would I have to show for that? I would be really good at solitaire? Whoopee. I could completely clean and organize my house but the second that someone came home and trashed it my eye would start to twitch there would be a flash of light and the next thing I would remember is the paramedic asking me if I knew my name. So, that's no good.

So, I am starting a blog. While I hope people will read it that is not at all why I am doing it. Why are you doing it you might say? Well, I'm so glad you asked and I will now tell you that random voice in my head. See, that would be the reason. When I left work 8 1/2 years ago I went from traveling about two weeks of every month and having every moment of my day filled with adult conversation and interesting tidbits of day to day life. If I wanted to go for a walk I went for a walk. If I wanted to go to dinner with a friend I went to dinner with a friend. I controlled my social calendar and all that was on it. If I needed to work late I didn't need to create a taskforce to take care of anything I just worked late.

Once the kids came along that all changed. I can remember standing in my driveway as a friend drove away after seeing my first baby for the first time and feeling completely alone. I wasn't alone, I had my precious newborn in my arms but something was missing and I felt guilty for having any sort of thought of loneliness because my precious child was a human and he was right there. Guilt. It has played a large roll in alot of my issues but we will touch on that later.

Adult conversation! That is what was missing! We were post 9/11 at this point and my husband was very protective of his new family. He didn't want me going out much and he didn't want me getting the mail because of the anthrax. I need to stop right here and tell you. I love my husband. He is wonderfully overprotective of his family. Sometimes it annoys me but it always shows me how much he loves us and doesn't want anything to hurt us. I will probably touch on him alot in this blog because he is alot of my world and I want to come right out and say I love my husband he is a wonderful support and provider for this family and any of my complaints or good natured ribbing are surface only.

I lived about a half an hour away from where I worked at that time and most of the people that I worked with had either already left the sinking ship that was where we worked or they were so busy trying to bail the water out that they didn't have time to come out and sit with a highly hormonal crazy person. I understood that and I was okay with it, but it started the alienation. I tried a Mother goose group and didn't connect with anyone there. I tried a MOPS group and didn't really connect there either. I had several neighbors that I loved and still do to this day, but it was still a crazy whirlwind of loneliness and guilt and let's just say it is nice to have the winds die down a little bit.

My kids are both in school this year. They were both in school last year too but for some reason that year is a blur. I'm not sure why it just was. So, I am starting this now. I am going to only allow myself a certain amount of computer time a morning so that I can get this house in tip top shape and stay involved at my kids school.

I am a person that has a strange sense of humor and I love to make people laugh. Sometimes my posts will be funny but not always. I have noticed alot of people hurting around me lately and so sometimes I will try to encourage randomly. I'm going to cheat. I'm going to post some of my favorite rants that I have already been writing.

I'm going to be very random on here. I'm not going to mention specifics about where I am or my kids names just because I am a little weird about that. I hope this is helpful to others but mainly it is to place my rantings in an appropriate place. I think I scare people sometimes. If an adult actually talks to me in the real world I typically monopolize the conversation because it feels so good to talk to another human. Hopefully this will curb that craving and I can be human again.

I would love to hear if I have helped or made you laugh or what not. I hope this is a blessing to others. We will see where it goes....and away we go!