I don't mind age so much. I don't feel old therefore I am not old. Only problem is that lately my hormones have been wreaking havoc on my personality. My doctor says that if I will get 150 minutes of cardio weekly it is clinically proven to be just like taking an anti depressant. Cool. Slight problem. I am so down I don't feel like getting the 150 minutes of cardio.
I have no reason to be down. I am blessed beyond measure, and yet here I am near tears with a feeling of hopelessness like you wouldn't believe! I hate it. I can track it to the day on a calendar. You would think I would figure it out and plan ahead.
I feel lonely, yet I am not alone. I feel like no one likes me, yet I have many beautiful friends. I feel like I can do nothing right, yet I have many talents and I am good at many things.
I've got to get off this computer and go out and find the joy. I am mainly writing this because I know others feel this way, and I want you to know you are not alone. You are beautiful. You have many things to contribute to this crazy world. You are perfect because you are you!
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I totally understand and am right there with you. Compound it with being 2500 miles from home and all your lifelong friends in a new city and new job. It's a hard road to travel. I found two ways to help me through it: on those days when you know it's going to happen, schedule a massage. It gets those endorphins up and active, and it helps get you motivated to get out and move. The second thing is schedule new experiences for yourself. If you ever wanted to learn how to do something you were too afraid to try, take a class (take a girlfriend along if you don't want to do it alone, but do it for yourself regardless), or go somewhere new. Do something to get yourself out of the rut. Since I moved, I took a painting class, I took a class in how to make sushi, I have a workshop coming up for a screenwriting class, and I joined the church choir. You do these things and you are so busy meeting new people, making new friends and having new experiences that you forget you were feeling lonely. You're right - it's all about finding the joy. And don't forget that Christ always walks with you!
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