There I was trolling around facebook waiting for the washer to stop so I could continue the dance of the laundry room fairy when it hit me. A photographer that I had used to shoot the kids and their cousins for my mother in laws birthday present was posting pictures of a somewhat familiar face. The bride was beautiful, but who was she? I looked through the pictures and then it hit me. The father of the bride was a friend of mine from high school's husband.
Long ago, some 26 year ago to be exact I was the assistant drum major for my high school band Crystal was the drum major. She and I had grown up in church and church camp together. Crystal was a highly intelligent very organized young woman. Crystal was one year ahead of me in school and when she graduated she went to the college that I would be attending after I graduated.
I knew that she had left college and gotten married. I have kept up with her through my mother over the years because she and my parents live in the same neighborhood. I knew that she had 2 girls and one boy. This is what I knew.
Fast forward to today when I am staring at a beautiful bride.
Wow! A woman one year older than I am has a grown woman for a daughter? How can this be?
It didn't completely come as a shock to me I am not completely in denial it was this past year when I realized that the new students at my college weren't even born when I graduated...NOT EVEN BORN!!!
My children are 13 and 11. Contrary to popular belief it does not feel like just yesterday when they were babies. Parenting is the hardest most selfless act I have ever done in my life. My guess is the "feels like just yesterday" feelings come when they are no longer home and you are missing them. I am still smack dab in the middle of MOM!!! She won't stop looking at me!!! MOM!! He hit me!!! MOM!!! I'm starving to death!! (right after lunch) MOM!!! Where are you?!
I love my children! I just sometimes miss me. I'm not ashamed to say it. There are parts of me that look forward to the days when I can yet once again plan something for myself without having to come up with a power point presentation in order to accomplish the task.
I just don't want for it to go by too fast because all to soon that young woman staring back at me will be my own.
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