Vasovagal response.

This post is more for me.  I am shook to my core and I need to write to calm my nerves.  Plus I want to remember the details while they are fresh on my mind.

My daughter is prone to passing out at the sight of blood.  She also abhors needles.  Today she needed to have her blood drawn for her yearly check up.  We have had difficulties in the past so after her blood draw we were taking it slow.  After the nurse was finished she stayed in a prone position, she then slowly sat up , sat there, stood up, saw black spots and sat back down.  She then laid back down and said that she didn't feel well.  She then got extremely agitated and was saying over and over that she wanted to go home and then she was gone.  She was already laying down so she didn't fall but her eyes and mouth were slightly open and she was sheet white almost green.  I tried to say her name and pat her back to me but I got no response after a few moments I got nervous and yelled for help.  They couldn't hear me.  I didn't want to leave her to open the door because I didn't want her to roll off the bed, but they weren't coming with me yelling.  I opened the door and yelled " I need help!"  and they came running 2 nurses, the doctor, and his wife.  The nurses were rubbing her chest but couldn't get her back either.  I would say the whole ordeal was just over a minute.  You think a minute isn't that long, but I want you to get a timer and set it then think to yourself my child is dead and see how long it is to think that for a minute.  Then all of a sudden she did a gasp of a breath and then started talking as if nothing had happened.  The nurses then started taking her blood pressure and listening to her with a stethoscope they pricked her finger to take her blood sugar.  Everything looked fine.  The doctor said it was a vasovagal response.  As soon as I knew she was ok I lost it.  I don't cry so that scared her and she started crying.  I know I should have held it together but that was intense!

I don't know how on earth anyone has the wherewithal to check to see if someone has a pulse because I couldn't hear anything but my own heart beating out of my chest!  Typically when she passes out it is only a few seconds.  Not this time!  After it was all said and done she laid there crying and upset.  I feel completely guilty about that ,had I held it together she would have come back and just been a little freaked out to have so many people over top of her.

She wanted to walk to the car, she was very quiet , she got in the car and still very stoic.  I got her some ice cream and she ate a little and then fell asleep.  She got home and laid on the couch for a bit. She was then up and ready for me to take her to play practice.  She says she feels fine.  Me?  I 'm a wreck.  Parenting is hard!