What am I going to be when they grow up?

All I ever wanted to be in my life was a mom.  Oh sure, I got my college degree, I had a job.  I had my own life but even when I was working people would tell me "You are going to be a great mom!"  I was drawn toward kids.  I loved them and was silly and cartoonish enough to not frighten the crap out of them.
I was 29 when I had my first child and 31 when I had my last.  I have loved every stage of motherhood.  I have to say it is absolutely the hardest thing I have ever done.  It isn't easy to give up yourself for another human being especially when they don't know how much they should be appreciating it.
Would I do anything differently?  Absolutely!  I wouldn't do it so differently that I didn't end up with the two humans that I have been blessed with, however, because they are pretty fantastic.  It is what we are aiming to do as parents, right?  To create humans that are an honorable addition to society?
The thing is, they are about to be done with high school.  They will go off to college and start their own lives that they do not need me meddling in and if I have done my job right they certainly won't want me to do every little thing for them.  So, what is to become of me now?
The job I once had is no longer of interest to me it just seems so frivolous and without merit.  I want to do great things but my degree is 25 years old and outdated, antiquated even.  I do still love small children don't get me wrong but I am old and tired.
Do I go back to school?  Seems daunting.  Start a youtube channel about my crazy life? Too boring. I am sitting here looking at the next stage of my life with absolutely no idea what it's going to look like.  In years past at least I could say these are the grades my kids are going to be in, this is where I am going to be working, this is who my circle of friends will be.  Not so much with this next step.
It will all be fine.  It is most definitely a lesson in trust.  I am confident that God can use this mess of a human to do something for the kingdom.  I am just feeling a little overwhelmed by it today.  So, remember baby steps.  Keep moving forward.  We are all just trying to get to the finish line.  Most importantly...Go out...Be kind!