Oh my word.

I was never a person that yelled. I can remember the first fight with my husband where I yelled and it felt so foreign. Like I had used muscles I had never used before. I have to say I don't like it. I don't like to raise my voice and I'm sure that I don't look very attractive when I am yelling. However, since having children I have found that I must raise my voice on different occasions mainly for their protection but also I must admit because I was down to only one nerve and I will be if they didn't get on it and do the hokey pokey.

Tonight was an evening like that. My first born is not in this at all it is all my second. The boys are watching football and so she wanted to do something girly so up we went. I tried several things none of which were acceptable so after a few I told her to choose and she yelled at me. Now. Have I yelled at her before? Yes. Not in excess but yes I have. Do I allow a child to talk to an adult in that manner? No. No I do not. So, I calmly explained that her behavior was unacceptable and that I would be in the next room until she decided to calm down so she screamed at me to go downstairs with the others and leave her alone and then commenced bawling sobbing if you will into her pillow.

Now, I am a firm believer in the only reason you cry is if you are physically hurt or someone has died. If you are crying to manipulate someone's feelings you are not going to get my attention. At least not my positive attention. So, after enough bellows and tears to start some sort of tidal wave I got her out of bed and washed her face and brushed her hair explaining the reasons to cry and was she either A. Bleeding or B. Dead. She looked at me very strangely and said no. So, I knew we were back on the right path.

What is it about children that you can love them so much and yet they can make you so completely crazy?!

This is another reason in a very long list that I decided to start my diet regime after the kids are back at school. I would be completely tiny if I weren't an emotional eater.