Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Next chapter please!

I received word tonight that a dear friend of mine is losing her battle with cancer.  Now.  I am going to stay absolutely positive about this and pray for a miracle, a Hail Mary in the final seconds of the game, a "we just can't explain it!"  She deserves it.  She is joy and light and makes this world a better place.

I was thinking about her, looking at old pictures and yearbooks when it hit me, and therein the topic of tonights big blue chair moment.

I went to look up Stephanie's freshman picture in the yearbook.    I looked at the names, I looked at the faces.  Some were familiar, some absolutely were not.  Absolutely no recognition of them whatsoever!  This is incredible to me.  These were the people that I lived life with for some 13years.  I thought of some of them as more popular than me, some were the tough kids, some were the ones that always got into trouble none of that information is still prevalent in my mind.  They all look extremely goofy to me.  Big hair, big glasses, big teeth.  The ones that I thought were SO HANDSOME!! Are anything but at this point.  It is blowing my mind!  My perception of these people for those years is gone.  They have been left behind in my memories.

I tell my children all the time.  Some of these people aren't even going to be in the next chapter of your life.  Do not concern yourself with what they think of you.  Be yourself.  Be kind.  Be the ingredient to this crazy world that you were meant to be, otherwise it won't be the same without you!

The special gems that stay with you for several chapters are the ones to cherish.  They are your tribe.  Love them well.

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