I have never lacked in self confidence as it pertains to being able to walk up to a stranger and talk to them. I enjoy the art of converting a frowning person into a smiling one. The thing is when it comes to self confidence about my appearance...there really is none.
I have never been one to be fussy about if my clothes match or if my hair and makeup are presentable. I have to say that if I were not married to my husband I would probably look like a cave woman most of the time because it just has never been a priority.
Don't get me wrong I'm not saying I look bad when I wander out into the world I'm just saying it isn't a on the front burner of my life, and to be honest I had never given it a second thought until I started college. I had gone to a local pool with some new friends of mine and a 10 year old boy walked up to us flirting. He was impressive with his knowledge of the art of wooing a woman. It was sad really I wondered who on earth had taught him that so early on and why he even cared and then it happened. He had been throwing his lines about asking questions and what not and I responded to one of the questions. He said Oh honey I ain't talking to you. You ain't all that. He went on telling me how I wasn't his type and pretty much slamming any bit of self confidence I had in the dirt.
He was 10 years old why did I care? I will say that at the time I probably acted tough, said something mean to him and we left but here I am more 25 years later and I can remember the encounter so it definitely stung a bit.
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.
Stupidest rhyme known to man. Words penetrate far beyond physical pain. I don't think of that little boy often, mostly when I am feeling down about myself or negative. I have had people say nice things about me in the past do those things come to the front of my thoughts when I am down? No, of course not.
As you go about your day today be kind. You never know who might need your mercy and grace.
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