Stupid Hormones.

I have decided that if I would actually write down how I am feeling each day that there is some sort of hormonal pattern that should be tracked. There are days that I am downright dangerous and others where I should be kept from all people for the good of their safety.

It isn't necessarily anything anyone has done to me or that a particular day makes them more or less annoying to me it is just these crazy stupid hormones that can make me go from completely content to ready to mix up my entire world in about 20 seconds...or less.

I just need to get through my thick skull that happiness is my choice. I can choose to be happy or I can choose to be miserable either way it is my choice and since others can get away from me or I them it really has nothing to do with others so much as it has to do with me.

Take this blog for instance.

I love to write this blog. It makes me happy and is completely therapeutic for me. I started out doing this solely for myself and I was okay with it. However, since I have been doing it for awhile I have come across other people's blogs that have 100's of followers and 1,000's of reads. Really? Okay, so then why do I only have 10 followers all of which I know? Plus, why has no one commented on my blog in months?

Again, it isn't for others it is for me but it feels good when I feel like I am helping others and that there is actually a purpose in my ramblings. I could choose to get discouraged and stop writing. No one is reading anyway right? Wrong! Even if what I write is only read by one random stranger in Croatia and I am able to make them smile or laugh well, then it is all worth it.

Now, am I going to know this person in Croatia? No, probably not, okay absolutely not, but if they smile then they will want to pass that along and if we are all passing good will and smiles around rather than hateful sour miserable looks around well then I say Good show!!! (In a fairly horrible British accent)

The next time someone is mean or hateful to you do not return the favor that crap will spread like weeds. Either try to cheer them up and change their outlook or just walk away and do something nice for someone else. Spread joy and love people, spread it thick and spread it wide!!!